Not Looking

Moses got a burning bush
He wasn't even looking -
There's not so much as an ember
on my toe

Jacob climbed a ladder
wrestled with an angel
Saul hated, persecuted,
but was chosen
anyway.

Twelve men,
one of them, a traitor,
all of them - ordinary
plucked
it was personal -

What's it like to be
one of the elite?
spoken to -
Scary?
Is it rapture, or is it
sorrowfully alone?
Or does it even matter
what it feels like?

Is it a fact?
Is it a feeling?
Jesus pointed his finger,
said to fishermen, "Follow Me."
God's voice from a flame -
"Lead."

Maybe now that the search is over
My light in the sky will appear.